We all have a need to be loved and to feel we belong somewhere. I think that this need is basic in all humans. I was unconsciously trying to force John to live in my world and I know realize I shouldn't have done that. I was being selfish and I am thankful that he was mature enough to have the commons sense for both of us to know a relationship between us could never work. I now know that just because someone stirs up a desire in me that it doesn't necessarily mean that I am supposed to be with that person. Change is good, but only for the right reasons. Sometimes it is best to stick with what you know. I am comfortable being an Amish. Yes, there are things about this lifestyle that I would like to change but overall, I am happy and my son is happy being here. As a mother, I cannot consider my feelings only. I have to...

I respect him for this because he allowed me to put this whole situation in perspective. Dancing with him in the barn and seeing him for the first time in my husband's clothes are memories that I will cherish forever. The best memory of all, however, is when we kissed. No one can ever take these memories away from me. Not Eli or anyone else in our community. I thank John Book for having a strong identity and knowing where he belonged because he has instilled these same values in me.
Bibliography

http://pittsburgh.about.com/cs/pennsylvania/a/amish_2.htm (Accessed on June 29, 2010).

Witness. Dir. Peter Weir. 1999. Paramount Pictures. DVD.