Her face had seen the god of the mountain, but she was not ready for the encounter yet. In her delusion, Orual also says "Why must holy places be dark places?" which is a reflection on her misunderstanding of
the nature of the gods and of holiness in general (Lewis 259). Orual is
not in touch with the actual positives of god and spirituality, and thus
needs to improve her relationship with the gods.
Ultimately, however, Orual succeeds in conversion. She succeeds in
realizing her errors. She is able to lift the veil from her face and
sacrifice herself. "I never wished you well, never had one selfless though
of you," Orual maintains thus showing her self realization (Lewis 317).
She realizes how she has treated people wrong and has not had a proper
outlook on life. The veil is a symbol covering her face, and only if she
removes it can she gain salvation. Visions help Orual to understand,
however, and this means that maybe she did not convert on her own. Perhaps
the divine helped her. And surely she could not succeed in conversion on
her own because it required selfless action towards some one else, in this
case her sister Psyche who she treated so badly earlier in life. But in
the end, it is reflection on her own relationship to the gods, towards
others, and in her own actions that one truly can convert towards the true
spiritual path. Lewis makes it clear that in this conversion process love
is the most important thing. It must be self less love for others and
willingness to do whatever it takes. Only then can one reach salvation and
can one be beautiful, for even someone as ugly as Orual reaches beauty once
she is able to convert.
Orual's conversion, and her own struggles with the divine, is
reflective of the challenges humans must overcome to discover God. To find
God, one must first find God in him or herself. Only through finding the
divine inside, can one truly discover...

With the veil over the faces, to borrow Lewis' metaphor, humans have to face, and therefore cannot see
the face of God. The face of God is not for humans to see anyway, because
it is so pure and divine. However, there will come a day when we all have
faces, as the title suggests, and then truly can we discover God.
Ultimately, we must discover the Godliness in us as individuals; we must
all undergo the conversion of Orual. The love that humans think they feel
is not unconditional and it has to be to discover God. Discovering God is
finding heavenly love in oneself, and to discover that one must believe in
the greater spiritual powers without empirical proof. Psyche found her
true happiness by trusting God, and she had beauty that was limitless. In
Till We Have Faces, Lewis depicts how humans must go through a conversion,
a difficult conversion in which they find true love in themselves in order
to understand the true love of God. Only then, can God be discovered.
C.S. Lewis has created a complex novel in his retelling of the story
of Cupid and Psyche. It is a novel with numerous themes and meanings, one
which is very deep and reflects on the very core of the interaction between
human nature and spirituality. Spirituality is within, but it is not that
simple. It requires endless love; not selfish or envious love. This love
is required for conversion. One must find the love inside him or herself
to make conversion possible. The face of God is impossible for one to see
until one has a face in him or herself. Orual went through the process of
gaining a face through her conversion, through her realization of her own
self-deception, and in that Lewis is saying that it requires internal
awakening of the divine before true conversion and understanding of God can
be reached.
Works Cited
Lewis, C.S. Till We Have Faces: A Myth Retold. London, UK: Geoffrey Bles,
1956.