This essay offers a close reading of Janice Mirikitani's poem "Suicide Note," analyzing how the speaker's internalized shame, gender identity, and parental disapproval converge to produce a tone of bitterness and resignation. The paper examines key literary devices—including repetition, winter imagery, and the sparrow motif—and considers whether the speaker's sense of failure accurately reflects her parents' attitudes or arises from her own psychological distress. The essay also addresses the poem's broader social implications for how parents communicate expectations to children, particularly daughters.
"Not good enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough" — these are the words that echo and persist throughout Janice Mirikitani's poem "Suicide Note." The literal title alerts the reader to the tragic ending, which the speaker claims is a result of psychological abuse by her parents. An angry tone pervades the poem, laden with bitterness and sarcasm. The speaker even uses the word "bitter" to emphasize her sullen state of mind. The concrete details that stand out most in "Suicide Note" include the use of repetition and the emphasis on the speaker's gender.
The speaker has internalized her parents' disapproval, but it remains unclear whether her parents were earnestly pushing her to try harder or whether they were, as she suggests, prejudicing her for her gender. "If only I were a son, shoulders broad... I would see the light in my mother's eyes, or the golden pride reflected in my father's dream of my wide, male hands worthy of work and comfort." The speaker also claims that her "choices" in life were "thin as shaved ice."
The reader wonders whether the speaker is imagining that her parents wished she were a boy, or whether they had actually told her so directly. Ending the poem with "breast of earth" further stresses its gendered implications. Her death signifies reunion with mother earth, whereas her biological mother failed to provide her with the nurturing she needed.
"Suicide as tragic confirmation of perceived failure"
"Winter and snow as symbols of death and coldness"
In "Suicide Note," the speaker claims that her parents repeated "not good enough, not strong enough, not smart enough," which led her to commit suicide. Her parents may have said these things outright or merely implied them. No matter how hard she worked, she could never live up to their expectations because she was a girl and not the boy they had hoped for. Whether the speaker's sentiments accurately reflect how her parents actually felt, or whether she might have found another way to strengthen her resilience, remains uncertain. Surely a sparrow cannot fly with the weight of snow upon its wings — but birds do make it through the winter if they stay with their flock and travel far enough south.
Mirikitani, Janice. "Suicide Note." The Value of Sparrows, 14 Jan. 2015, thevalueofsparrows.com/2015/01/14/poetry-suicide-note-by-janice-mirikitani/.
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