¶ … personal experiences of knowing that I was suffering from depression. How I conveyed my situation to the others, and how I suffered from the situations as a result of my depression.
My name is Lyshill Revero**. I live in Alabama. I have been married since more than 7 years. Marriage is an institution that requires increased trust companionship, compromises, and mutual love. Honesty is the one factor that can strengthen the institution of marriage. The beginning of our marriage was happy and stable. After some years, I started to face many difficulties and issues in our marriage. I knew that life was made up of certain difficult scenarios and it is important that the individual remains strong even in the presence of such scenarios. I kept struggling with small and minor issues in the beginning. However, slowly, these issues were gaining more energy and it was becoming hard for me to fight. This was one of the main triggering factors to push me into the state of depression. The main reason of an increased disturbance that I was facing in our marriage was when I came to know of certain activities of my husband stationed overseas. My husband was away and he was transferred to Korea. In the beginning, it seemed to work out well. But afterwards, I came to know that he was explicitly doing things in Korea that were not very good for our marriage and that were not to be done by any morale and a dedicated husband. I started to think that my husband was not being a true and an honest husband and that our marriage is of lesser importance to him that makes him unfaithful with me. I could not reach my husband, as...
I was alone and had no one to talk to. The thoughts were becoming locked in me and I could not get them out of me. This made me angrier and even more depressed. I started to get depressing thoughts that used to make me feel angrier. These events were very slow and I noticed that these events, as the time was passing by, were gaining more energy and were making me sleepless and angry. Gradually, I was unable to sleep in a proper manner, I used to feel tired all day long, I used to have no energy for work, and I was increasingly sluggish. I tried hard to keep myself busy but I used to fail. These thoughts and the depressive moods that I was having was pulling me in and I felt like I was only surrounded by these negative thoughts and depression, and there was nothing else left in my life. I felt as if I was fighting and I was losing from the depression. The power that the unfaithfulness of my husband had was completely overtaking me as a person and my soul and I was losing the fight. I could not think straight and in a proper manner. I was growing tired and sick of the situation thinking that I was unable to change the present. I was unable to change my situation and there was no one who I could talk to was making me sicker. In the end, I wanted to commit suicide and I wanted to kill myself. It felt as if the depression was taking complete control of the activities that I am supposed to complete and my thoughts. I hated the feeling. No matter how hard I tried, I used to fail. Slowly, the stage came where I lost touch of reality. I used to remain angry and anxious.…
